Hiatus

**musical mood preference: The Beatles - Benefit of Being Mr. Kite**

My laptop's power cord shorted out last Thursday, so I was computer-less until this afternoon. It was a tough week, but I lived through it. I actually didn't miss the computer that much, minus messenger conversations with a couple of special people.

Yesterday was pure hell work-wise. It was 94 degrees all day. I painted 7-430 and worked in the kitchen until midnight. The kitchen was well over 100 degrees, pushing 110 degrees. I am doing the same thing today, as I'm just in from work and I have work again at 5. Hopefully it won't be as brutally hot in there tonight.

New Car

**musical mood preference: The Who - Bargain**

I like my new car. I put myself further into debt to acquire it, but I am pleased with it. It runs beautifully and is by far the nicest thing that I have ever personally owned.

Today is my only day off in a span of 50-60 hour weeks. I have a softball game shortly, so I'd best get ready.

New week, same deal

**musical mood preference: Steely Dan - Do It Again**

Well, I've started another week and made some slightly life-changing decisions, but it still seems to be a normal work-filled week for me. I picked up a shift at the bar tomorrow night 5-12 and I am already scheduled for Thursday and Saturday as well. Painting during the day all week minus a half day on Wednesday to drive to the credit union and pick up my loan check for my car.

Working today was absolutley unbearable. Roofs in the 90 degree humid weather are not exactly prime pieces of realty. I think I have another day like that to look forward to on top of the shift at the bar. I have to work with my manager, which is a different type of atmosphere than working with my other friend. Anyways, its about time for bed since a long day is ahead of me tomorrow.

Cant Sleep, Another Update

**musical mood preference: Grace Slick & The Great Society - Daydream Nightmare**

Well, I can't sleep since I'm thinking about the previous post's thoughts. I figured I'd type in here a little bit more and it might make me tired.

I am going to get a new car this week, hopefully EARLY this week so I can take that trip to Binghamton on my own. Its a '98 Honda Civic, which is a giant leap forward for me, considering I have never had a car that was from the 1990's. I have owned a 1987 Honda Accord, a 1989 Subaru Loyale, a 1989 Acura Legend and a 1988 Chevy Blazer.

This thought makes me considerably more upbeat.

I hate this

**musical mood preference: The Zombies - Time of the Season**


I think that I have a problem with inattention. I am easily distracted by most things and lack motivation for things that don't seem essential to me. I mess up stupid things at work. Little details about orders and absent minded mistakes are quarter-hourly happenings. It makes me feel so useless and dim. I think I am going to go talk to my doctor in Endwell about it. I want to see if he also thinks it is what I believe it is.

I think I'll make an appointment for the earliest possible time.

Life is weird. I had such a wonderful weekend, but I think that it hurts me to see everyone and feel so much caring and then have to leave it. I miss having that many friends and being around so many special and interesting girls these past two days has left me missing the empty portion that is my love life. Someday, I suppose. I guess I never realized it would be so hard without that part of life. I haven't had that at all for almost a full year now, but it still haunts me and all I want is to have that feeling back. If only a person would come along with shared affections.

Anyway, enough whining. Bed time, work in the morning. Hopefully getting a new car tomorrow or Tuesday too.

Work work work but Friday is tomorrow.

**Musical mood preference: Jefferson Airplane - Lather**

I have been working all week. Doubles on Tuesday and tonight. They weren't too bad thanks to a pick me up thought in the back of my mind. Tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow = party with Sara and friends. That makes it all worthwhile.

Lately

I have been very busy lately. Working alot of 14 hours double shifts between painting in the mornings and working in the kitchen at the bar in the evenings. It has gotten to be really tiring. I have a pretty easy week forthcoming, so I will be doing alot of relaxing. I still have 45 hours of work scheduled, but that is a far cry from the 64 hours of last week.

Plus, I have this weekend to look forward to with Sara's birthday.

Grace Slick & the Great Society

DAYDREAM NIGHTMARE

We already know what you're ever gonna be
And you think you're much too good for pleasing me
But now I'm gonna run away
Taking all the fun away
Ohhhh watch me run

I see the wisdom in your eyes
But now I know that all you told me is lies
And now watch me run away
You've taken the fun away
Ohhh watch me run
Annnnd you move around as graceful as you can
And my days have all turned into one nightmare

But now I'm gonna run away
Taken the fun away
Watch me run
You move, yes you move, around as graceful as you can
And my days, my days have all turned into one nightmare